something meaningful

i get a feeling inside that i have to hide. it makes me want to destroy everything in my path. beat people up into a bloody pulp. and basically snap their necks. is that normal?

I do so much crap for everyone I know, even complete strangers. I go out of my way to accommodate them, and I get nothing in return.

I don’t want a parade, money, or praise. Just maybe a thank you once in a while. I don’t need it, but if they don’t like/or appreciate me, then why am I busting my balls to do what I do?

I should just quit trying. Cause I am literally not good at anything.

i am really fuckin tired of everything. apparently i am only useful for one thing.

the truth is that no one talks to you unless they need something. so i have been used because of what i could offer. but now i guess my usefulness is running out. as you get older you’ll also gain what i had, i still have it but the truth is that you will always choose someone else before me. i guess i am just done with trying to do everything for everyone, when i get nothing in return.

I sacrificed my happiness for everyone else, cause that’s who I am. I can’t explain it, except it’s like second nature to me, its in my DNA. I may never be happy but at least I can try to make others happy.
but now i am starting to think that it isn’t worth busting my back trying to help others when my life is so shity. that may make me a bad person, but i am fine with that.

thecouragetopursuedreams:

You can only be afraid if you have something to loose. Therefor I am not afraid.